Oh man, I can relate. In my experience, it hasn't matter if I tried to reach out to my sister or someone I considered my best friend... I got smacked down. And for some reason, it is always when I need them the most... when I am so heart broken already that I feel desperate. But as painful as it is, I have come to realized that it is partially my fault. I'm an all or nothing kind of girl.

My relationships tend to be one sided, because I like to feel helpful and needed. I have no problem listening to other people cry or rant, because if the problem isn't mine then I can easily see a way to a helpful tip or solution. I ,also, have a natural tendancy to hide my pain and hold my emotions back.

I always consider my problems so IMMENSE because my emotions feel that huge and intense. When my dam finally breaks and I have no choice but to let the people around me know that I am struggling, they often feel overwhelmed. I have been told, "I'm your friend, NOT your therapist!" When.. I've just been in so much therapy that that is just how I talk and express myself.

I personallly find it difficult to find the balance between a causal friendship and some one I can depend upon. At the moment, I am too fragile to take that risk again. I recently had to give up a 5 year friendship, and it is a hardship that I can't face to let my heart be open to even... the possibility.