Manic: what does help me is actually that I try focusing on this thought: I managed so long without doing that, is it really a way which I want to take? have I forgotten that it helped only for a short time, that the moral hangover after that was really really bad? Do I really want to be at the same place as I was x years ago? I was so proud of myself when I stopped doing it and I know that it is like an addiction, so I make a long list of things which I promise myself to do before any SI, and I have never had the need to go through the whole list...