Hi, you're right, it would have been a good idea to express your true feelings to your T. But I can understand how that might have been hard for you at the time, maybe you were feeling misunderstood, frustrated, let down, had your feelings "screaming to come out" while they were talking about something else (???). Then again the session is about you and helping you, so if you feel that things are going down a dead-end you absolutely have the right to say something like "look I really need to move this on a bit........".
Sometimes when sessions go well it's easy to forget that they are "only human" and can't necessarily know exactly what they should/could be saying, so sometimes they may "stray" a little without a bit more direction from you.
So, yes, they are your sessions so nothing wrong at all with sharing some ownership in them and having more input into where you think they should be going/what's not going well in them for you. In fact that's a very good (!!) thing if you can do it.
But you know that therapy can have it's good days and it's bad days, as long as the general road you're on is helping in some way, either shorter or longer term. Perhaps a road you both need to keep working on with their and your input in sessions?
As for the to-do-list, it does help sometimes to push the boundaries and take risks. But if you feel that there's just no way your going to be able to do it, then I'd say you should narrow the list down for yourself into one that you see as realistic while still giving yourself a bit of a challenge. And hey, if you complete it make sure you feel really proud of yourself. Doesn't matter what the original list said, you've achieved something!!!
And if you complete just a fraction of things on there, then all that means is you need a bit more help in achieving another bit of it, you've still got somewhere!!
Never walk off with a to-do-list that you know ain't going to happen!! The list doesn't mean you're at fault, it just means the list is at fault!!
So, open up, and if you feel you're not working on anything challenge that with your T. And you know what I'm going to say if that goes on........time to look for another T!!!
Alison