I've finally figured out of what my first fear is. I'm afraid I will never love or be loved by anyone sexually. I am 28 still a virgin and I'm a big girl. I would say BBW but I don't feel beautiful and I certainly don't feel like a woman.

My only boyfriend couldn't get hard and would go soft anytime he tried to fool around. He said it wasn't me but now after being broken up with him I'm starting to think that it was. I'm a big girl. I'm not terriy attractive. I feel so ugly and I can't see how any guy would want me. And they don't.

I just had to get that put there.