Basically, my friendships only exist if I contact someone. If I don't, then we don't talk. And that's hard for me, because it makes me feel like a POS and like I'm just annoying everyone.

So I'm done. I put the date I started into my phone, and I am not messaging a damn person. If they message me to talk and not because they need something, I'll record the date in my phone and will resume contact with them.

I just don't get why I'm not worth the effort, ever. Like... I TRY so hard to not be horrible, so what do I keep doing wrong??