Welcom to PC. You may want to consider seeing a psychiatrist. They are trained to diagnose people and can provide the care you may need. It takes a trained professional to make this type of diagnosis. I am glad that you are recognizing some signs that you may need some help to become stabalized. I understand how scary it is to find help that you will be comfortable with. Many times you can speak to them on the phone prior to making an appointment and see if you are comfortable persuing it further. I hope you find that you can get the help you need. It sounds like your boyfriend is supportive. That is great. Good luck. Keep us posted.