Hello,im new to all of this.(and here as well)
Maybe talking to strangers will give me a different point of view towards my situation(nothing personal against it,no disrespect towards anyone),but talking to family and "friends" hasnt really yield the "aid/helpfullness" i was expected to believe.
Dont know yet how much i can say for now or how long my energy will last.But for now all i can say that i have tried to go to a therapist and honestly i couldnt even make it out of my house
I know that unfortunately everyone at some point has to experience death,loss,grief...Im not okay with it and neither i have made peace with it,but after so many tries to delay the inevitable i was...well defeated.
No worries,not gonna commit suicide or rather i cant...not even self harm myself...no matter how much i wish to end it...honestly...
But the way that i had to experience the loss of someone...or rather the one,in such a horrible,cruel,painfull and unfair way has left me rather..in limbo.
Im jot sayint im special,but i doubt if many people had to go trough suffering,cojstant and scarring as i do...or still do...cant really tell anymore.