I cant remember if I posted today or not. Had a day of functioning to dropping to non functioning depression. I managed to make it (and fake it) at my work meeting but absolutely crashed after. I got so low and so close to doing myself serious harm. Luckily I have a supportive partner who helped me through the toughest parts and did everything possible to lift my mood to functioning again. I am so blessed to have him. I've just taken the new dopey meds dose, I give it about 40 minutes before I turn into a zombie again. Im not upping it like I should be tonight as the side effects are too bad at the moment, I could not handle any worse. 3 more days to get through until pdoc.