I don't know if they are to blame, but I do know they sure ain't helping.
"My mother often cries and yells that she has so many regrets even putting me into this world. That she doesn't deserve a monster like me."
You don't deserve her, you deserve much better. You sound lovely
That is a dreadful thing to say. She is the monster not you. Its the type of thing my mother would say, she always made it clear I was a burden & everything wrong in her life was MY fault.
Like I asked to be born!
You are absolutely not the one causing all the trouble. If you are told that you are being used, used as a scapegoat, like I was.
Research on the possible causes and risk factors for BPD is still at a very early stage. However, scientists generally agree that genetic and environmental factors are likely to be involved.
Studies on twins with BPD suggest that the illness is strongly inherited. Another study shows that a person can inherit his or her te
mperament and specific personality traits, particularly impulsiveness and aggression. Scientists are studying genes that help regulate emotions and impulse control for possible links to the disorder.
NIMH · Borderline Personality Disorder