I am no small fry, I don't think guys are so much concerned about the packaging. I have met several guys who have said they would rather have a larger woman. They are great cooks, more motherly, and know what it is like to face rejection, they don't wonder around thinking they are gods gift to man. So don't be so hard on yourself.

Big girls like sex to. It does sound like it was the guy who had an issue, not an issue with you. From what I know about guys (no offence guys) it is not your face and body size they are interested in and thinking about. They have there eye on the "prize". So I wouldn;t worry to much about it.