I'm 21 and I've been TERRIFIED of death since I learned the concept of death. Whenever I'm alone, in crowded places or otherwise, I suddenly realize again and again that I'm going to die. I wonder if I am going to die young or old. I wonder if it's going to be painful or if I'm going to die in my sleep. I wonder if I'll have grandchildren or I'm going to die alone.

I don't believe in God, at least, in theory. I keep it open to the thought of the possibility of God, but it just doesn't make sense to me. Personally, I believe I'm just going to wake up in someone else's body and start all over with no recollection of my past life, or it's going to be like a dreamless sleep and it will be blackness. Both are TERRIFYING.

Death is my biggest fear. Not having faith doesn't help. I really wish I had faith.