Went to see my psychiatrist and she was not very nice. She asked me what it was like for me when I was 'normal' and kept stressing that I was sick. I felt way too vulnerable. Things suck right now - I had to take a leave from work because of depression - it's already been a month, and I feel like I'll never be able to go back... Life seems so pointless right now. Don't know what to do with myself... Just feel like taking the syroquel during the day (instead of at night) so that I'll sleep through it.