at 66 life has hit the slower lane , but never thought of myself has old. Put up with a lot I don't let my family see, its my mental health they can only look on at the struggle. But death is a thing I have been close to many time it does not bother me I have lived 20 normal; lives mostly in the fast lane. Has for its in GODS hands ,if there was a god why would he give me depression all my life, so i have never believed in him.