Of course I've thought about dying! I made plans for it, here on earth and in heaven. It is better/easier to be with Christ than here on earth, but for now, I'm here on earth.

I recently shared with my sons how I am decluttering anything they might consider a burden to sort through. They laughed...reminded me of how my parents lived well into their 80s. I reminded them that I am disabled 27 years now, stress takes maybe 10-15 years off a person's life, and how allergic I am etc etc etc. After that I received no replies.

Having just put my best buddie Caleb, my service dog down (2 weeks ago) I faced death recently...

and my Christian psychologist is battling cancer...

I began thinking I can't live with both of them gone... (and I had become confused and thought my T was not returning)...and was really putting the finishing touches to decluttering, and reevaluating my "bucket list" (I've almost added parachuting!)

I await the Messiah's return...and it can't be too soon for me! I can't do anything about all the garbage going on in the world, and what my country is changing into, so in that sense I am SOOOO ready to leave! But by staying away from the news, I'm okay in that respect.

Death puts a new perspective on life. I think it's good to consider it, plan for it etc., but then rearrange life so as to limit as many regrets as I can.

thoughts?