I made an appointment to see a psychologist on Monday. I don't have insurance and she is pretty expensive but my health should come first. We'll see. I never believed in psychologists before -- I always thought they took advantage of people who were sick. To me, the system seems innately flawed: If I get better then I stop going to therapy and the doc no longer makes money.

I am not suicidal but life just seems so hard right now that I almost wish I was sick and could lie in bed all day. I just can't seem to make any decisions... afraid to make a mistake.

Any religious people out there? What is the point of life? Why does God let us feel this way?