I seem fine, getting better. It's been 6 months and I am still alive.. it's been a month since I stopped trying to contact him, since I stopped telling him that I love him and that I don't understand what happened.
I seem ok. I work, I do sports, I try to go out and have fun. But sometimes I get back home and I want to see his face so much, I know I can if I use my other facebook account and go to his page, but I am so scared, if I see something that I don't want to see I will probably kill myself. He already blocked me but I was using another account to look at him sometimes.. I think it is madness and I wish I didn't want to do it but sometimes I do. I need something to stop me because if i see something that I don't want to see I won't handle it! It is a dangerous line that I can't be crossing anymore for my own safety, so why can't I stop? why is it so hard??