I'm giving up on wanting to be in a relationship.
I know it's hard to quit thinking at age 17, but I have poor social skills that hinder my ability to be successful in socializing.

I've been noticing women everywhere, some getting married, going out on dates and having babies with them.

I feel like I should get married and have children of my own, but I know there are people out there that do it just to be like everyone else. I don't want to be that person who just does it for attention. I don't even think of myself as reliable or responsible with myself and every day life.

Usually when I see myself getting married, I end up getting a divorce.
When having a baby, I can see myself being clumsy and neglectful.

I don't want it to be like that, so now I'm just avoiding it to not let anything bad happen.

I just feel like I should stay single for the rest of my life and learn to deal with it.