Hmm. So you see her twice a month for an hour each time, and you can't be in touch at all?... I'm not surprised the connection between you is struggling a little. That would be fine for people who are doing well and who aren't being hit with relentless stress and challenge, but I think where you are in terms of your stuff at the moment, you could do with much more support from your therapist? Is there an option for changing to one you could see every week? Preferably one you could call or email sometimes?

It sounds frustrating.