my mom said something that hurt me and made me feel guilty. and the other day my friends know i have depression and they didn't mean to hurt me but it did. one friend said when we were talking about depression she said im so glad my boyfriend is not sensitive to things and like oh my god i dont have good parents and i feel so sad, she said, i wouldn't know how to fix that and made it sound like a turn off if he was like that, like me in other words. and then my other friend which is her boyfriend said, "not to sound mean but, is your brothers girlfriend normal? like does she have problems with depression or ocd or anything?". I just didn't know what to say but as always i was good at going with it and pretending to be ok with what was said and the thoughts i was having thinking does this mean im not normal enough for people to want to be with me, to be in love with me, to love me for who i am inside and out besides my depression issues and other thing? im 23 and still dont have anyone i've tried before but before we started dating he asked me if i had any problems which made me think he might leave if i say yes so i lied and said no. i wasnt good enough for him and we split up on bad terms. I feel hopeless when it comes to a boyfriend. i feel alone and scared of what i might do to myself today or someday because of how much i hate myself and being me.