I raise my white flag and I wave it. I wave it hard and let if fly freely in the wind for I feel like giving up. I am tired of this hardness, this rain and fierce wind that bites at my back...never leaving. Oh, why won't it leave me be? I am so tired of this!

I want to give up so badly. I don't want to bother with pills anymore. I want to no longer feel this deep and endless sadness inside me. I feel as if I have no one to talk with. I am struggling and have been for so long this month and for days on end now...just days. I don't want to anymore. This new medicine...what does it do? So long as today it tires me and nothing more. I frown for I cannot smile. I cry for I cannot laugh. I mourn for I cannot rejoice.

I give up for I cannot fight any longer.