No, it's okay. When I say unlikely event, I mean the fact that I want to have sex with a woman but I can't see it happening. I have in fact sought escorts, but I had one rip me off (I paid the money and she never showed up), and I had another one reject me because of my virginity.

I wish I had the money to afford a ticket to Nevada, as well as time to take off, but I have neither. I had the blow up doll idea suggested to me in a self help chat when I mentioned I'm at my wits' end trying to find sex.