I know how u feel. My family chose everything and everyone but me.

The question isn't will u always be disconnected. The question is do u want to be connected? If u do, then it's all about finding that connect. I found my partner and yes I always have a time where I feel disconnected but that's my insecurities and my issues. She and her family are always nice and include me. They throw me a bday party every yr when I say I don't want to be a bother.

U can connect u just need to learn how to accept what others give u.