Sounds like you appreciate having someone who understands you, especially when some support or empathy is needed. And that's great for you to have been getting better. So - at those times when you turn to cutting, or when you find your thoughts turning to suicide - do you have a therapist or a professional who can help you through this, with development of more positive thoughts, and ways to find relief. Just don't want you to harm yourself (by accident). That would be so unfortunate. Or even call a support line, or go to a hospital? Hoping for you!