hello, well i tried so hard not to cut myself i was shaking and i gave in and cut up my thigh with a razor i still feel terrible and want to do more or worse. i'm panicking inside and don't know how to deal with anything and everything its eating me alive. i dont want to feel this depressed and anxious any more. i would like for my parents and everyone that knows me to know how debilitating this is for me and if i could help it i would but i cant. i feel so hopeless and my emotions feel out of control. i could barely write this cause i'm shaking super hard.