Thank you for saying these things!

If I could figure out how to quote from 2 different screen names/posts, I would show you specifically. Unfortunately, I'm tired and not very tech savvy.

I can't tell you how much it means to me to know that I am not alone in this. I felt so GUILTY. I felt like I was being ungrateful! Like because my depression wasn't at its worst, that it was supposed to be an improvement... that I should have been able to DO something with myself.

When I'm not at those extremes.. it seems like it SHOULD be an indication of me getting better, but it appears to only be a different variation of my illness. ...Or a sick twist of an illusion, because I still feel helpless while, at the same time, AWARE that I should be doing better.

...I'm just confusing myself now lol, but my point is...

THANK YOU! Your validation has eased me. I can breathe a little easier now.