hey i can agree with about teh non suicidal post policy
but i understand why they made it.

hecki can`t remember useful input
i just remember..i can understand you about that friend.
we expect we hope "somebdy some1 help" and when we are dissapointged we are even more depressed. maybe angry.

when yo uapologized and said you were sick and such..
so you didn`t tell that friend or whoever that you felt like suicide?

i hope you will be feeling better soon.