Sorry to bump an old thread, just figured it was the right thing to do rather than make a new topic regarding this situation.

I'll openly say right now I opened up to my friends finally about all this around October/November of last year and it's helped a ton. I don't find myself being too involved with this anymore, and I'm seeing a new therapist, but I still can't shake the obsessive thoughts and guilt/shame of this. For people that have dealt with what I'm going through, what has helped you out?