Oh Nirvana, how I feel for your pain and the loneliness of depression. But you are not alone; keep sharing and reaching out here. And like Rose said, please have a therapist or counsellor to talk to.

Sounds like you've enjoyed some nice boyfriend relationships, but please don't hang all that you are and all that you need on that kind of relationship. It doesn't sound like this one could be the kind of trust and love you're waiting for. It would be very unusual if it were at this young age.

You need to be gentle on yourself and get let yourself get strong for your own sake. Good on you for trying to explain yourself to him, but it sounds like he doesn't have the maturity to understand.

You sound like a lovely, gentle, caring soul, who is a gift to this world, and you definitely deserve to be and feel safe. So please keep taking the steps that help you feel good and care for yourself. You will get through this! And keep talking to us and/or to a counsellor.

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