Thank you so much, it is very helpful to hear from others. My friends have been very comforting to me during my rough patch in my life. And many have said what you said (not awful, didn't hurt anyone) and I'm starting to understand that, it's the just the obsessive part. I try to stay busy as much as I can and distract myself, which help, but I feel like I still come back to these thoughts.

Sadly I'm only going one day out of the month right now, not sure how great my insurance is, but I'd like to attend more. I'll bring it up to him when I see him, just felt like logging on here and speaking to this great community of people here again.