I have a similar problem. I don't really have friends as well. But I really do want to have a few! So I try, a lot. And it works, for a limited period of time. Untill I can't hide my true colors anymore. And then I end up pushing them away before they can get close enough to hurt my feelings. I'm just SUPER cautious because I don't trust anyone.

Hope a therapist or a class can help with this issue, because it is HARD to be on your own all the time!