Aargh! I really hate you right now despite the fact you haven't done anything wrong. You encouraged me to reach out on the weekend and you answered my email encouraging me to ring you. I did but it didn't help. What did I expect. I still have the massive list of stuff to do today. You couldn't do it. You were irritated that my family kept interrupting and wanted me to put myself first but it was hard, though I get your point. You said that when I am feeling like this work is not a great idea as I need to really look after myself but I have some deadlines that can't be missed. Some things can be shelved but I already knew that. I just want more. More than you can give.i feel like a bottomless pit that the more you put in the bigger it grows. I am considerering trying to stop. I know the advice I would give others is hang on in there these states are not forever, but when you are in one it is difficult to imagine climbing out. Oh why am I me. Please stop being kind as I can't take it