if you are referring to my post, mentally ill people are not jibbering wrecks 24-7 we embrace the small windows of remission and go for it. I no sometime I am going to get wiped out bad, I actually feel 1 coming my way now I no all the sign,s and it wont be pretty . I am proud how I survived my young life mistakes and all , I could have crawled under a rock and missed out. I chose to wreck my body and live a wild life between the very very bad times. I WILL BE REMEMBERED , not for some shell who let it beat him. but the fun friend and husband that fought on through the battles but never won the war.