I am getting to really want my old habits again. Dont know if I should be scared or embrace it. Even ideas to try and see if I can still do some things. Was too good at doing all habits at one time and it sacred me. Havent done everything for a few years. Pretty much. Think these habits and the PTSD are why I am still living where I am. Have sometimes been afraid to think about going back to an apartment. All the habits will come back. I know they will. I want so much to do them now.