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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
I think I've figured out why I never feel "heard" even though often I am…I'm someone who craves a lot of attention and "worship" for lack of a better word. That's probably why my dream job would be to be a rock star. I'm at least in music already, though more of the scholarly side for the time being…
I don't know why I need so much attention, but I do my hair, makeup (if I have time for makeup), choose my clothes, piercings, and future tattoos/piercings for the maximum amount of attention…even from complete strangers. I'm at a point where I'm afraid my desire to look different is going to separate me from academia, even though I'm a musician, so looking different makes sense.
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I agree with the first part, very much. My dream job is to be famous, rock star or not, and I'm familiar with a few instruments too.
Everybody deserves attention, me thinks. Nothing wrong with that, even I sometimes tell myself that 'the world doesn't revolve around me', I do crave attention from strangers, am sometimes let down when I think I look good, and don't get any attention at all. In a very conservative society that I live in, I tend to be a little more bold when it comes to looks.
I think you should be heard, maybe you only feel like you're being heard but are not.