I know how you feel. I lost what I considered the love of my life to a drug overdose. It's been a few years now and I still miss him. I think you need to give yourself more time. It does get better with time and now I'm ready to start trying to date again. No one will ever replace him in my heart, but there must be someone else out there for me, and for you too. Sometimes I still think he was the only one for me, but I figured I needed to try again. I would just give it time. It's taken me 4-5 years to get to this point. You'll get there one day too. (((hugs)))