Don't let the monster win. I know it gets frustrating and hard to deal with but if you look back I'm sure you've felt this way before and oh what a difference a day can make. Point being, you pulled through before. Sometimes a solid day of sleep helps me out. I know it's not much but I hope you realize you're not alone and have a gang of people here if no where else,you can reach out to. I know most of us can relate to what you feel right now. Best wishes and hang on!