I have a memory of being in the bath when I would've been around 8 or 9 and I was waiting for my Mum to come and wash my hair. I had an erection but I wasn't really sure what it meant, though I remember it feeling quite sensitive to touch.

My Mum came back in and looked angry at me. Perhaps, looking back, it was more embarrassment than anything else because if it was the first time I remember having a proper erection then it would've been the first time for my Mum seeing it, as well.

Anything after that was probably just being in secondary school and being attracted to girls more and more as the years went by, though I significantly remember masturbating for the first time when I had probably only just turned 14. I was actually playing around with a fetish of mine (which is wearing high-heeled boots) and I just decided to give it a go. I must've been feeling pretty aroused as I'd ejaculated pretty quickly and I was more confused than anything and taken a back by the feeling. I kept trying it through the coming (no pun intended) weeks and the rest is history, as they say.

I'm not very comfortable saying any of this, mind. I'm just pushing myself to be comfortable around everybody here when it's a place for trust and help. I'm not too good at the sharing thing, so my apologies if anything I'm saying is too little or too much.