Sidony, thank you so much for your comments. I found them hopeful, especially the one about maybe T and I will actually be closer after this. I'm not sure if I believe that, but at least it gives me a little hope. I think when I see him next week, I'll just apologize from the heart, tell him some more stuff I didn't get through last time, lay it all on the line. And promise not to withhold stuff anymore. It will be honesty from now on. Oddly, I thought I was honest before, and nothing I said was dishonest, but by withholding stuff, that is a form of dishonesty. I see that now. I feel bad I did that. I have been very selfish in therapy. It's hard to face one's flaws and admit to mistakes.

I think having a week between sessions will be really good for me this time. I need to sit in this and reflect.