Sometimes it feels like im on a roller coaster of emotions. I just wish it would calm down and let me ride out calmness for a while. Id wonder if i was bipolar but these roller coaster feelings were all triggered by real events so i dunno. In the end my girlfriend came back home tonight and i have two new tires my parents paid for that i couldnt have afforded and needed to be replaced anyway. I wish i could have been thinking this to begin with but oh well.

I cant really do anything that would get me thrown in jail My parents help me out quite a bit when i need it and if i start acting out like i did when i was young im pretty sure that would end. The positive is i dont think the landlord will be able to sell the house. She wants $130k for an old house that is rotting on the outside and the electrical is majorly messed up. Plus the guy who lives upstairs doesnt even have heat. Plus the electrical bill in the winter(Minnesota) is like $350/month. This house is maybe worth 70-80k if that.

Why i dont remember when im freaking out that ive freaked out before and it turned out alright i dont know. I wish this would stop though.