allme. Thank you for your response, if you don't mind me asking. Why don't you think it was? I've had numerous people say it was? I'm confused.

nannywoofwoof, thank you for your response. Thank you for advice, I will keep up with my therapy and I am seeking different kinds of help. I have tried to forgive myself but I just cant help blaming myself and being confused. Though, I was 14. I was old for my age. I don't know

nicoleflynn, thank you for responding, I am gettinf help, I'm just lost. Thank you though