Okay, your humble OP returning. Yeesh, can't we all just get along
The reason I am seriously wanting to pay for sex is because there are women who absolutely will not do a virgin my age. And yes, I can fudge the issue for a time, but sooner or later I will get found out due to what will be overwhelming anxiety and shaky performance. So, why not get the experience with someone whose job it is to provide such opportunities and there will be less anxiety in general when I have the chance with someone I love?