When someone asks you a personal question that you are not comfortable with, you have ever right to say that you don't care to discuss it or it isn't their business. Friends are going to come and go throughout your life, and though losing one may seem like a major issue, in the longrun its not.

Depression is a hard thing to deal with. When it first starts, people want to help. Friends try to get you interested in other things and make you happy. Its not that simple though, and eventually, most people start to pull away. Your real friends are the ones that will stay with you even though you can't seem to pull yourself out of your depression. Depression makes most people uncomfortable. They don't know what to say. They are afraid of saying something wrong and setting you off. After a while, they want to go on with their own lives and not have to be reminded of bad feelings all the time.

That doesn't make depression your fault. It doesn't mean you are a bad person or incapable of being loved. That being said, its also not a time to try and get into a relationship. For someone to love you, you first have to be ok with yourself. You have more time than you think you do. Until you know what you want and can figure out why you feel so bad and correct it, its best not to get romantically involved with someone. Though some people can hang on in a relationship with someone who is depressed, more often than not, they start feeling helpless and wonder why they aren't enough to pull you out of it. They wind up leaving which just makes you feel worse.

If you don't have a therapist, you might want to get one. Its very difficult to analyze yourself honestly. Usually you wind up blaming yourself and finding all kinds of faults that are nothing more than normal mistakes. You need a healthy way to cope with your feelings. Cutting isn't going to solve anything. At most, it may give you very temporary relief from emotional stress. It doesn't last though. Until two years ago, I had been cutting and otherwise injuring myself for decades. All it does it make scars that you don't want later on. It seems to be more popular now than it was when I started. Its just another thing to feel bad about after the initial high.

Be yourself and don't worry about what other people think you should be or act like. You can't make everyone happy. All you wind up doing is making yourself feel inadequate. The people who care will stay.

Sam2