…especially by someone who said they found me attractive otherwise. Like it doesn't matter if I have a great personality and sense of humor and that I'm pretty otherwise if I'm a bigger size than a model. And he knew it would upset me to imply that I'm fat but he did it anyway. And now I can't see myself in any way other than fat…right when I was almost able to see myself as skinny. And it doesn't make any difference how many people say I'm skinny…guys still think I'm fat. They want girls to look (and possibly be) anorexic. I'll just never understand…

I eat a really healthy diet and I've tried to do some exercise, but I always hurt myself and I've been to chiropractors and physical therapists enough, so it's not like I can spend hours each week exercising. Besides, I'm muscular, so I'd bulk up and become even less appealing I guess because I would look even BIGGER.