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Originally Posted by newtus
i didnt realize that Sometimes and i dont know punky.
thats so scary! oh sh_t! i just have to be noticed in the system? i better not say sh_t. thats why im scared to be in the community treatment center cause i think theyll put you on that stuff fast...forced injections.
idk i mean i cant live my life being on so much medicine. i wish they knew that.! i cant like live...you know...a full life. im bound by this medication. this sucks so much.
im thinking about even quitting my therapist so i dont get noticed in the system. her comment about sending my medical records to my new pdoc was really unnerving. and disturbing.
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OK I didn't tell you that so you would quit the system but so you can learn to work within the system. You have to be stable enough to get past them and be deemed fit to take care of yourself...leaving is a red flag...that's why she wanted to forward your paperwork for continuity of care. Think of how it is in the hospital where you have to convince them you're well enough to leave well that's how outpatient is too but at an even higher level. Try taking the 4mg and see if you feel more stable on that. Remember when you wanted to volunteer at petsmart to get out more...that's where you want to be. 4mg is still way less than you were taking before so you will be less sedated and start to lose weight.
Think of it like this you're skiing along and if you have an incline of 25% that's pretty fun but if you have an incline of 75% it's like skiing off a cliff and that's not good. You'll make it to the bottom of the hill either way but it would be nice to be in good health rather than broken at the bottom.