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Originally Posted by brokenentity
I want to be adored, looked upto, and worshipped too, don't know about 'deity'.
I can really connect with what you're saying. I like being looked at, especially see some jealousy or admiration in the eyes of others. When i feel good about my looks, and I don't get any mention of it from anyone, I feel terrible.
I have some 'fame complex' i want people to listen to me, talk about me, i don't want to just live out a 9 to 5 job anonymously (no disrespect intended)
I think you want it all, or nothing, at least on what you say. A bit like me.
You're very honest, I don't know how many people are like this, but they probably won't admit it.
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I'm honest to a fault…it's a bad bad thing. I just need to learn how to lie…but it's difficult to if you care about a person (or it's anonymous like on here).
What really bothers me is I have zero luck in romantic stuff…unless everyone involved is drunk, but what I'm really referring to is relationships. I'm attractive, intelligent, have a great sense of humor/personality, am extremely honest and loyal…but I'm never anyone's first choice or probably not even their second or third. And I don't understand what's so awful about me…it makes zero sense that a large number of people aren't fighting of me (unless of course they're drunk). And if I show interest in someone, they'll either get away from me or use my loyalty in order to use me for whatever they need. I don't think most people care in real life or there's not enough around for me not to be lonely most of the time.
I'd rather contact someone I had feelings for in the past (but obviously I wasn't his first choice and probably not even his second or third) than be alone the next few days. It doesn't even matter that in the end, all he does is hurt me. At least there's some happiness there first.