the more i think about it the more i realize that all my interactions (i cant call it more than that) with males were all fake. all liars, mind games to get what they wanted, sex. all they ever wanted was that. so many sweet talks or sweet names and all that crap but in the end was all about a ****ing vagina. i was never special enough to have love. im just an idiot for falling for it over and over. there is no love for me.