I agree with Magic, it does kinda sound like bp. The fact that you got sucked into this church and then had a sense of nothing can go wrong sounds like a manic episode to me. I mean I know other ppl get that way, but not many go out as far on a limb as you did. Part of a manic episode is feeling "super human" and a feeling of it is impossible to fail is kinda over the top. I am by no means able to say for sure that is what it was, just throwing my thoughts out there. When I was questioning my diagnosis because being on here, I didn't feel right. One thing my pdoc asked me, if I wasn't why would my medicine be helping? Not sure, but it kinda made sense.