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Originally Posted by Elektra_
the more i think about it the more i realize that all my interactions (i cant call it more than that) with males were all fake. all liars, mind games to get what they wanted, sex. all they ever wanted was that. so many sweet talks or sweet names and all that crap but in the end was all about a ****ing vagina. i was never special enough to have love. im just an idiot for falling for it over and over. there is no love for me.
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There is love for you and it starts with 'self love'. Once you love yourself as you would a baby or a good friend, all doors will open for you. I was like you for 8yrs. After an abusive marriage for 22yrs, I felt I should not even be sharing the air others breath. I was worthless.
For 8 yrs I did not date but worked on loving myself completely. I made lots of girlfriends who supported me and made the effort to call them even when I did not feel like it. I then kissed a few frogs who after a few dates did not meet my new standards. It did not put me off once.
When I did not expect it, I met a guy in the local supermarket. We were married over 13yrs before he died of a heart attack. I will look for love in the future but any man who is with me needs to reach my standards or I no longer want him.
Learn first to love yourself x