I think about death all the time also, but I don't think of suicide. With nothing to look forward to, nothing to care about, happiness isn't so happy anymore, wishing it will go away and it never does. The days just pass by, with no motivation, in darkness (my "schleprock" syndrome). I just tell myself to take it day by day and watch the time pass by...hoping it will change someday.

Hang in there! We are all in the same game of life. I just wonder if hell is on earth?