For some reason, people can only be romantically/sexually interested in me out of pity….
How am I supposed to not be depressed when I realize that? No amount of medication is going to erase that those who pretended to "love" me did it in order to use me (because I'm so loyal and would do anything for them) or out of sheer pity because no one will ever really want me like that.
That's why I'm depressed despite the medication. Is it even worth taking meds?
And is it worth being around people again? Do I have to start from scratch and make a new group of friends again? And this time not share anything about myself and be a completely different person….
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